It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I will be writing a longer post explaining why. Right now, I’m working on healing, which is requiring me to look at a lot of things in my life, especially on an emotional level.
Today, as I sat quietly in our garden, I realized that long-held anger has manifested into toxic matter in me physically. While there’s a lot to be angry about in the world right now, I don’t feel that this is new anger, and, interestingly, I don’t feel that it’s my anger.
This anger was given to me long ago and I’ve held on to it because I’m not sure I even knew it was there. But, today, it became evident that it is there and that it has been there for as long as I can remember. Now that I realize this, I will work on releasing this anger, prying myself from its terminal grips, which will allow me to discover who I am without it.
This epiphany in our garden today reminded me of a poem I wrote years ago, A Long-Overdue Goodbye (see below), when I was releasing some old emotional trauma. I end Chapter 19, Your Mind, of The Spirit Factor with this poem. I’m sharing it here because, like me, I’m sure many of you also need to say a long-overdue goodbye to something in your lives.
It may not be easy, but it’s necessary for us to not only survive but also to thrive. Life truly is a never-ending journey of letting go of things that hold us back and smother our spirits. So, today, let’s be brave together and say a long-overdue goodbye to what we need to let go of, whether physically, emotionally, or spiritually, and discover who we truly are without what we’re saying goodbye to.
I hope that my poem helps you with this process. Read it, meditate on it, and let it be your mantra as you free yourself and your spirit.
A Long-Overdue Goodbye
I’ve carried you around for quite some time
Little did I know, you were never really mine
I took on your burdens as if they were my own,
and you gladly handed them over, then left me to be alone
I waited for you, hoping you would come back for me,
but the days and months and years went by,
and never again did you I see
I tried to move on and hide my wounds from the world,
hoping no one would notice I was just a broken little girl
I looked for someone to rescue me from the prison of my pain,
but no matter how much others loved me, there it would remain
The inner war raged on for, oh, so many years
It was a brutal and bloody battle, that would never end, I feared
But just as I was ready to surrender and let my life slip away,
I realized I had suffered a debt that was never mine to pay
So I must say a long-overdue goodbye to the sins of our family tree
For I’ve decided that it’s time for me to finally be free
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